Random.

* We are officially out of our house. We are at the farm, cramming our necessities into one room. Looking forward to the future when we can build a new house and create a new home again. I was a lil' stressed which may have caused the tears but maybe I really was sad about leaving the home behind that Kyle and and I had made our own. Whats done is done and I cant wait to see what the future holds. :)

Its memorial day and everyone is coming to the farm to eat, Im sitting in bed...waiting for Bip to get up so that we can go to the creek!

I spent absolutely all day at the creek yesterday, swimming, tanning and later fishing after I picked Bip up. She spent the night at the farm and is nursing a terrible sunburn. She also helped me plant some stuff yesterday. Mostly flowers.

The kids are out of school for summer and I have one day of work left! Wahoo!

Ive been fishing, watching war movies, swimming, planting, tanning and I actually cleaned my car out, it was sorta gross.

Franklin has a new cage outside that will be finished today.

Kyle had a three day weekend after 8 weeks of working OT Mon-Sat. He has worked on Franklins cage all weekend.

Thor, the donkey, not long ago stomped a baby goat to its death and was in the process of doing it a second time when Kyle spotted him and I made a mad dash to save the lil' thing. I made it, but she is probably going to be injured for the rest of her life.

Ivy's (goat) baby (Ollie) is just about as big as she is.

And the most exciting news of all, Scotty McCreery won American Idol this year. He is precious.

Thats all for now!

Real.

So, I am gonna start writing in my blog...AGAIN. Not to get followers. Not to show off. Not to have thousands of readers but because I think it will be nice to come back years from now and see what I was thinkin/feeling.

We got a contract on our house on Hilltop View 4ish weeks ago. I have waited and waited for this moment. The house is small (888) sq ft. It has some not so pretty things around it and I want to be closer to the farm. But as the moment gets closer and closer to actually closing on it and moving out, I get really sad. This is where Kyle and I first started our life together as a married couple. This is where we formed some sort of independence. It may be small but it will always be the first little house that we made our own home in. So, as I packed boxes today, I became a lil' melancholy. I think it would be different if we had a new home to jump into and make out own..but we dont. We will be living at the farm in a few short days while we build our new home and we wont have a home of our own. I love being at the farm, thats not it...but it isnt ours. I'm pretty sure that I will cry when its completely empty. I am looking forward to what is on the horizon though.

Kyle has been working so hard to make all of this happen. I love and appreciate him more than I let him know. He has a new job at Hemlock and has been working 6-7 ten hour days. Love that guy. And Im glad he is MINE. :)

Reminders...

Its funny to me how when I dont seem to be listening...God gives me those 'subtle' reminders.

Ive been trying to tell myself recently to put things into perspective. [I have a tendancy to create moutains out of molehills.]

And so this morning, I woke up early. Which NEVER happens. And I was about to be out the door nearly a half hour early. I know, right? Well, I was out the door alright. With no keys, wallet, phone, money, I.D.... NOTHING. I had accidently let the door shut and the handle lock was locked. I was locked out of the house with no phone and no keys! [GREAT, just great but hey...atleast Im early!]

I went next door to the neighbors. Knocked. Nothing. Knocked again. Nothing.

PANIC.

I continued to walk to the gas station in front of my house. Hoping the usual clerk is there. I think her name is Betty, shes always pleasant. She was. I asked to use the phone.

I called my aunt Elaine, who is 5 minutes from me and at one point had a key.

'Elaine! I HAVE A HUGE FAVOR! I have locked myself out of the house and need you to come let me in.'

' I gave the key to Katie and she left for work not long ago.' [My cousin, Katie, works in Waverly, 45 minutes away.]

CLICK.

PANIC.

Called Daddy, who I thought had a key.

'Daddy, where are you?'

'At the office, why?'

'Ive locked myself out of the house and I cant get to work.'

'I dont have a key, have you tried calling your mama?'

'I will now.'

CLICK.

PANIC.

Called the farm. [My parents home]

Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring. Ring.

PANIC. PANIC. CRY.

Called Daddy back. [Crying.]'Mamas not answering and Im late for work and I dont know what to do.'

'Im leaving now.' [He has no key, remember...]

CLICK.

CRY SOME MORE.

Then Betty frantically walked over and said 'Im gonna show you something...'She proceeds to show me how to get into a locked door with a credit card and proceeds to give me her Kroger plus card to use.

SO LATE TO WORK.

Call Joshua.

'Joshua. Im going to be late, Ive locked myself out of my house and I have no idea what Im gonna do but Im at the gas station in front of my house.'

'Okay, its okay....'

CLICK.

CRY.

Walk all the way back to my house.

SWEATING.

Stood on my cruddie porch that I continually complain about and make fun of and tried the front door. Nothing. Back door has the deadbolt locked. Tried the front door again and again. Again, again.

Sat in my half gravel, half cement driveway with grass popping up through the cracks. Crying tears of anger, frustration, helplessness.

Angry at myself for being dumb.

Frustrated at my mom for not answering.H

elpless because I didnt know what to do.

Pulled it together, walked back to the gas station and here comes Daddy!

He tried credit cards, paint scrapers and offered to take the window out.

As I watched MY Daddy, who had just driven all the way from his office in town to my house in record time to rescue me at a moments notice... I welled up with tears. Tears of thankfullness and tears of joy.

I HAVE a home that I am locked out of.

That has a driveway and a porch.

A car sitting in the driveway.

I have a job that I am worried about getting to.

I have a mama who I can call. Even if she doesnt always answer on my timing. I can still call.

A Daddy who is willing to drop what he is doing to come and help me whenever I call. And I know that...or I wouldnt keep calling.

I have been blessed beyond measure with these things and people in my life. And here I am acting a fool because I might be a little late to work.

CHILL OUT.

I had a nice ride to work with Daddy. And he gave me money like I was in highschool again. And I loved the flashback. AND! I was only 15 minutes late to work to boot!

[I also had a fun evening with Joshua because I was stuck and he offered to be my ride for the day, well...he might not have offered, I just assumed. And so, he did. And we went to dinner and be brought me home and it was nice out of work time!]

He has a reason for everything. I am sure I locked myself out for a reason. Will I try not to do it again? Sure I will! But, am I thankful for what I was reminded of today? Yes.